mmmm. dont care.

I'm suppose to do homework, but obviously I can't concentrate to even look at my books. I'm hurting inside, but noone can see it. I'm crying, but noone can see my tears. I want to give up. Give up on everything. Everything I worked hard for, I just dont care anymore.. but there is something in me that keeps hanging on. Something is telling me to dont give up. But why? Why keeping hanging on when everything just gets worst by the minute and everyone just doubts me. Half of my family didn't think I could get through high school. I've lived 19 years of my life always being disappointed at and been told that I'm selfish. Yes, welcome to my family. I hear this every single day. Always been told that I wont make it, all I think about is myself and just want to play. Fuck that shit. Yeah, family is suppose to support you no matter what. Does that sound fucking supporting me? Uhh no. If they're going to keep putting me through that, I might as well just fuckin die.