Blastoff Network; checkk it

SOOOO; my uncle is running this website called Blastoff Networkk . it's basically a website where you can chat, shop, listen to music, etc. all in one website without having to go back and forth. you can invite friends too & have them join your network. as my uncle would say it "its like facebook, but better!" If you set up a account, its free & YOU GET PAIDD! yeah, its free money! How? Well, whenever people shop online through blastoff, there is a certain amount of percentage you get money back. For example, if you shop online at target, they have a percentage right next to it like maybe 6%? so how much you or someone else buys from target, you'll get 6% of that purchase back. Okay, honestly im not explain this very well SO theres a video you should definitely check out, it tells you all bout it. but you guys should totally sign up, its FREE with no hidden fee or anything & you get paid! like wtf?! where can you found that at? nowheree! this is a brand new website, so its still being worked on till two more weeks before anyone can start adding friends BUT you can make an account & design your page. You just gotta wait for two weeks before you can start inviting your friends.


heres the sitee:
www.myfreeblastoffaccount.com

& heres my page:
ppl.blastoffnetwork.com/amandak
(its still under construction)

do you even care?

i hate how you dont care, i wish you would care about me a little more than you do now. i dont know if you notice, but i've been giving out signs & seeing if you would question it. but you dont. sometimes i wonder if you even care in the beginning like you said you do. there are soo many moments where i wanna just spill my heart to you because you dont realize how badly your hurting me. right now im in a position where i care, but i really dont anymore. im not going to give my all when i feel your not even giving me half of your effort. i realized that no matter how many times i say whats bothering me, its like you dont do anything about it. i hate sitting here & always feeling insecere. i honesty do not know what to do anymore. theres sooo much going through my head that i can't even explain to you.

COUSIN; i miss you like no other. after finding out where you really are, just made me realize how much you did for me & cared for me. you never let the bad things get me, basically was my protector. i thought you were crazy and being overprotective because i was the baby of the family. always been put up with me & my shit but still been there like you came to downtown to comfort me after the situation from the club. i would never forget it because you hunted those guys like there was no tomorrow for putting their hands on me. i was so caught up in my surroundings i never realized i haven't heard from you for the past year. & after hearing from you, makes me tear up every time i think about it. just the things you said to me hurt me because i know your at a place where danger is everywhere. i just want to protect you & make sure nothing happens to you. i seen the place & just picturing you in there is heart breaking. i didn't want to spend that phone call asking why you in there & how long will it be because i know i wont be hearing from you for a longg time. & no its not the end of the world, but i care about your safety just as much you did for me when you were here back home. you told me to keep moving forward & focus on my dreams because you believe in me that i can make a difference & that i will make you proud. also, to not worry about you because you will be out soon & to stay safe. i honestly didn't know what to say after that. i was just speechless because i know how much you care. we were both holding back tears. well i miss you cousin, everyone misses you. our family gatherings wont be the same till your here, but i know that day will come soon.





goodnight world; more to come .

Praying.

I'm at school, doing homework that I didn't do last night. Basically, totally gave up and decided to go to bed. I couldn't concentrate anyways. Finally, finished my paper for class after sitting in front of the computer for two hours. Wondering why? I'm scared, but I just hope everything turns out to be okay i wont know till tomorrow Omg im just praying for the best right now shes already going through something severe and scared she might need to go into surgery to remove it, but i dont trust surgeries very much because anything can go wrong. Ugh i guess i just have to wait till tomorrow to hear the news..

I'm praying for you, both of you.

mmmm. dont care.

I'm suppose to do homework, but obviously I can't concentrate to even look at my books. I'm hurting inside, but noone can see it. I'm crying, but noone can see my tears. I want to give up. Give up on everything. Everything I worked hard for, I just dont care anymore.. but there is something in me that keeps hanging on. Something is telling me to dont give up. But why? Why keeping hanging on when everything just gets worst by the minute and everyone just doubts me. Half of my family didn't think I could get through high school. I've lived 19 years of my life always being disappointed at and been told that I'm selfish. Yes, welcome to my family. I hear this every single day. Always been told that I wont make it, all I think about is myself and just want to play. Fuck that shit. Yeah, family is suppose to support you no matter what. Does that sound fucking supporting me? Uhh no. If they're going to keep putting me through that, I might as well just fuckin die.

What a Day.

Woo my first blogg.. sike. Anyways, today was a fun day. I went to Jan's house, where it's located in a completely different world to me. Desert much? Lol, plus I have never driven three straight hours before and never felt so tired. So I just let Jan drive for the rest of the day together haha. Went to get lunch at Red Robin, which I was totally craving for them friesss. Yumm! But hella got full for just eating a side of fries while he had a huge burger.. wtf?! If that happened, something is wrong hahaha! Usually I'm grubbinn, but I guess today is just not one of those days. I actually wanted to go to the mall, but we only had so little time before I had to go back home. Can you say LAME!? Oh well, we had a ton of fun and laughter for the rest of the day. So his homecoming is coming up & if i could get work off, I might be able to be his date. I guess we'll just have to find outt. But if we go, we'd be hottt. Of course now he's with me lol! Well I'm hella tired, had such a long day, but a great one. Not looking forward to tomorrow; work all day. Blahhh! Quick save me, take my shift it'll be a pleasure while I sleep away. Have a good night world! & yes you welcome for lunch jan jan (:

"To let go isn't to forget, not think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't winning and it isn't losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking out memories or thinking sad thoughts, and it doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It's not giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and it's not defeat. To let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome and move on. It's having an open mind and confidence in the future. Letting go is accepting. It's learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It's realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door and to clear a path to set you free."

-- Love itt <3

WHOOAAHH

im totally @ wife's house having a greatt wifey dayy (:



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